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dulu posting sesuatu di medsos karena ingin "diperhatikan", sekarang pengen posting, tapi tidak ingin menarik perhatian. tapi gatal ingin posting. tapi tidak ingin menarik perhatian. more like ga pengen orang lain tau sedang dimana kita, sedang apa kita, sedang sama siapa, dll. bcs spilling that information to the wrong people bakal memberikan masalah yang tidak perlu. dan berhubung i'm an overthinker, that would not be good. please do not take this wrong. meet Amry. teman baru di iship part 2, yang kebetulan menjadi objek yang saya foto. udah itu aja.

 i don't do phone call. i don't do video call. in fact, i hate them. yes,  i understand that the idea nowadays is to connecting people with you phone, but phone call and video call are just not my things. i even postpone replying text sometimes, because sometimes i need to gather myself. being with other people is just tiring. well don't get me wrong, i like to have my time with other people too. i need other people too, i know that. and do really i appreciate people around me. so yeah, i'm just not like any other people i guess. Marina Star Cafe and Resto, Sorong.

Never thought that i would step on this city the first place. More like i thought i'd only be here on vacation agenda. But yeah, you'll never know what life would surprise you. Currently staying in Sorong for my internship. Probably for about 2 months. And i'm lovin it so far. It's raining every night tho. But i love having my me time here. I don't have to tell you how exhausting it was the past 4 months. My face considered as keeping so many things in mind for so many people around me. I'm not saying that's a mistake, i do have many things going in my mind since i'm an overthinker. But it's tiring making up reason for my face. Untill i finally accept that nothing's wrong from my face, it's just the way it is. Resting bitch face. Plus the new me doesn't like to keep my hopes high, so yeah. 3/6

i'm a noob on camera world. you have to remember that always. but i wanted to try a simple camera, where i can just snap things and then go. so about half year ago i bought this Fujifilm Waterproof Disposable Camera from shopee. why the waterproof version? that's mainly because i would have an upcoming trip to Labuan Bajo on December 2018, and the plan was including the sea. this one is a photo of airport floor. i know you must think why would i waste a film on this stupid floor. well, that's because the airport officer ask me to try it first, because i asked for his permission to let this camera go without x-ray scanner. i've done some research that saying x-ray scanner would affect the film, specially for the film with ISO above 800 (cmiiw). for a first timer, i didn't realise that the camera had already taken the pic, since the clicking sound was sooooo soft to hear. so i snap and snap without realising i already waste 2 photos of this stupid floor. fvck. ...

i know blogging isn't really a thing right now, and i hadn't been doing it for awhile, and that makes me stupid. like stupid stupid, since writing makes me think better, i guess. exploring what i see, exploring what currently affecting my writing style, and the most important, exploring what i feel. look at me now. scrolling and scrolling my instagram eeeeverrydayyyy.. hhhhhh.. i'd say my medschool routine take part on this. specially on my last years, on my clerkship years. it's the routine that made me had to choose which one to be put on the first places. almost everyday, i had to be at the hospital, since dawn till the sun set. plus the night shifts that i had to do at the hospital. that was quite exhausting at that time. and after i finished my school, it sort of become a new habit for me, for not blogging anymore, i mean look how many posts i did recently. it's like i wanna cryyy.. wkwkwk. for this one, i don't know if this is going to last long or...

sejujurnya ini cuma sebuah postingan random. bukan untuk secara langsung mempromosikan lagu-lagu tertentu, karena aku yakin aku bukan yang paling update tentang musik, melainkan hanya sebagai pengingat. sebagai pengingat beberapa lagu akan memberikan kesan tertentu setiap aku mendengarnya, yang sedikit banyak mungkin akan memutarkan kembali ingatan-ingatan tertentu di otak. entah apakah "soundtrack" tepat untuk menggambarkan lagu-lagu ini. atau mungkin lebih tepat kalau aku gunakan kata "playlist"? well, apapun itu, yang penting kalian tau maksud aku ya. daftarnya nggak banyak juga, berhubung tangan kanan masih suka ngilu abis ambil darah buat medical check up (hvft), jadi mari langsung saja. ohya, i'll put the youtube link so you can jump right in to listen the song (in case if u want to). Kirana by Dewa 19. agak ga nyangka sih bisa ada lagu dari band Indonesia yang bisa masuk di list ini. hahaha. tapi Dewa 19 emang bagus. serius. hampir tiap pagi deng...

Loving you is hard, O. I still remember the day I met you the first time. Soon I realized you were the place for everyone who were seeking family. But it never was easy, and it never will be. Untuk adik-adik Anggota Muda 2018 yang baru saja selesai menjalani diksar. Meskipun tidak ada hujan dan terik yang menempa kalian, tidak berarti perjalanan ke depan akan selalu mulus. Kalau boleh mengutip, "jangan malas berproses". Semoga kalian mendapatkan apa yang dicari, karena sesungguhnya kalianlah yang mengusahakan apa yang kalian cari. Selamat datang di Osipital. Cheers!! Regards, OSI/005/045/REPRO once again, welcome! kita kasih foto narsisku di balik layar sedikit, yuk..  Probably the first and the last time I carried a tent along with my personal utility. wkwkwk. lemah akutuu gaes.. yang ini sayang kalo ga dipost, udah pasang wajah bahagia total meskipun napas setengah-setengah. ketika hari mulai gelap. di sungai bawah cendana yang...